Thinking of Suicide?

Do you ever wonder if committing suicide is the way you feel, like you have nobody there that cares or loves you at all? Do you think that the only way out is by ending your life? Struggling with stuff that feels overwhelming? Thinking that you can’t get help from anyone? Feeling that they wont be able to help you? Just wanting everything you are struggling with to just stop? That nobody would understand you?

I was once you before. I felt like I had nobody that cared or loved me. I was struggling with a lot of things under the age of sixteen. I tried so many times to end my life. I always thought nobody could help. All I wanted was everything just to go away, mostly the thoughts in my head.

I never spoke out because I thought nobody would understand what I was feeling inside. Until one day I finally spoke just a little bit. I couldn’t keep it all in anymore. It was causing so much pain in my mind and it made me do so many things that I regret doing.

Today I have finally, realized that there are people out there willing to listen and try their best to help me in any way. It showed me that people cared, even if they don’t know you that much and they try to understand just a little bit because nobody could understand you 100%… just yourself.

I finally got the help I needed for so long, so many days and weeks of struggling. I finally got help and now I don’t have the thoughts in my head as often. When I do have those thoughts, I go to the people I think could help before I do anything stupid.

So, I want you to understand suicide isn’t the only way. There are other ways other than suicide. If you ever think of suicide, think before you act on it. Think about your family and friends, how much pain you would put them through without any answers. Why would you do this?

Making them feel like it is their fault and blaming themselves for what has happened to you. You will leave them with a broken heart that will take a long time to heal. It would put your parents through so much stress after losing their own baby due to suicide. Making them feel like they failed as parents and making them think that they haven’t been there enough, loved you enough or supported you enough. Leaving them with just old memories and old pictures of you growing up.

Look at your friends, who would make trouble with them? Laugh with them? Who will they tell their secrets too? Your friends have a high chance of doing the same thing you did. Would you really want that? Your friends could commit suicide just because they miss you a lot.

Please just think about it before you do anything stupid because there is no turning back. Don’t give up, there are a lot of things to look forward to in life. Believe in me there is a lot. If I could make it through, you can too.

I hope my story will help someone. If at least one person, I would be happy!